Monday, October 08, 2012

Deja Vu all over again

Nano is looming large on the horizon and so is a feeling of deja vu.

I'm set to move house again... in November, just like last year. Seems the landlady isn't above raising an already high rent even higher. It's a game I'm not willing to play. The place was empty for about nine months when I moved in, it can be empty again for equally as long for all I care.

Of course, the annoyance is finding new digs and then shifting the parent again. I really, really don't need the stress but life has a way of throwing curve balls when you least expect it.

What's interesting is the fear that this year, I'll not be able to complete Nano. I am time poor. The new job doesn't allow for any goofing off, the internet at work is restricted - no private email and no forums - and no personal computers allowed. With the current... budget constraints, there is a staffing freeze on, so my colleague who left last month isn't going to be replaced. That leaves two of us to do the work of three at a professional level and me to still deal with the admin work. The learning curve is steep, regardless of how much I enjoy the work.

As a challenge, 2012 Nano is right up there. I have no ideas, not even hints, bubbling away. There is nothing - which is new for me - in the ideas cache. Zip. Nada. Zero. It's as if the Universe is saying 'not this time, you have other business'. Or it's presenting a challenge, testing my resolve to be a writer.

I recall way back when I first did Nano that I had nothing right up until the 1st of November. What came out in December was the first draft of the Huntress series, on which I'm still working - or trying. For all my good intentions on getting writing/editing stuff done, nothing has been accomplished since May.

As I said previously, work and parental care take up nearly all my time.

But I'm not giving up writing. Regardless of what's going on in real life now, writing is what I love doing. Having people read what I write is gravy: rich, thick, flavoursome gravy.

So. Nano. I have my eye on you. Meet me halfway or I'll you down.